`i want to be remembered as pain

[Otep Firethorne]

~Otep Firethorne

you'll remember her as that little dude you had a crush on ontill you realized he was actually a she. those grey eyes still haunt you today, the way they saw right through you and all your lies. she found all the missing peices to your puzzle and made her own motherfucking puzzle bigger and better then yours. trees and rocks talk to her, but thats normal. she hates men, but will accept you into her little world if you are boyish enough. a tiny thing, at five foot two and a little under one hundred pounds dont underestimate shesa strapping. shes buried seventeen feet under on her tattooed stomach so the world can kiss her ass. Overall shes not your adverage russian mobster lesbian pimp, shes a symbol. a motherfucking symbol.

~You know I'd never turn away, not in your darkest hour[/color][/font]

completestranger, When the world ends, we will all relive our childhoods, and our rebirth will begin
friendofafriend, because we are not ownable, we are not programmable, we cannot be controlled
sameclique, Revert. Revert into the sullen dogs you once were. as poison replaces blood, revert and demolish
justmet, Tie me up, light me up, tear me down. As the paint runs down your face and into your eyes
firstnamebasis,think of me. I want to be remembered as pain. Its more then a scar. it’s a lifetime
acquaintance,you can dance around the truth all you want but it wont change the outcome
onandoff,I know when you lie right to their face about how much you really love them
partyfriend,A mass suppression depressed by life unsure what he’s to live or die
drinkingfriend,But then away came the better days when life opened its new doors
enemiesturnedfriends, Struggling for a way everyday to live life not to fail but succeed
goodfriend,How much does one simply have to conquer what he's become
closefriend,And how many others can say my fears have become phobias
confidant, Time and time again, will his knowledge lead his aggression
bestfriend,It hurts to say that I'm at a loss for words, but you've brought this on yourself
bestboy, Numb I crawl, losing you. Over something so frivolous, so petty
bestgirl, You wear a chip on your shoulder like a badge of fucking pride
partnerincrime, Do whatever makes you happy, no holds barred. shall remain etched into my mind
attachedatthehip,Having enjoyed a day in the sun, their encounter with gore has just begun
inseparable,A homicidal fool not knowing left from right, now has the family in his sight
practicallyfamily,His eyeballs ejected his sight uneffected, he saw his own organs collapse
otherhalf,The mother took flight through the glass, and ended up impaled on a sign

~It was sixty seconds, since I met you[/color][/font]

gotohell,I return your glare, and my bones are chilled with some sort of sickening recipe of fear and anger
hardcorehatred,Day by day, time after time again, you distort chronology, you foster of terror
hatred,Tell me what is left from life if no sunrise lights your world you've been through all this pain
onesidehatred, I know your eyes saw the same sky as i see today, You smelled the leaves, You felt the wind
dislike,I know they imprisoned your body but how could they subdue your thoughts drowned
onesideddislike,will i ever know the end I die again now i'm one of you
backstabbed,No dream, that keeps me alive, no warmth reaches my skin. Their methods broke into my brain
cheatedon,killing machine breaking my spine? I know millions walk in and just a few will leave it behind
rivalry,Your icy breath will still warm my heartI hate these suicide emotions that are left
friendlyrivalry,As I feel your tears I bleed for you Please stop this, stop this crying onto me
friendsturnedenemies,(Beautiful) I hear your beautiful voice(Hope as) I will walk away crying
jealousy,Beautiful voices forever will choke me down I hope that you look me in the eyes, when I cry
envy,Look into a mirror at someone that you hate Sit back and watch, as the paint will dry
avoidance,As time will pass us by You won't change as the sky burns me Another lonely night will await me
scaredof,As the sky will burn you apart As the mirror turns you into someone that you hate
intimidated,I'm dying and bleeding of my past Wasting away from you I hope that you will break
annoyance,Bury your diamonds, destroy your rubies. We are searching for security in tradegy.
frustrated,Both of them collide, expressions horrified Head on at full speed, the vultures will soon feed
indifference,The father of three was impaled on the wheel,s his skull became a part of the dash
tolerated,he just backs up one more time Laughing at the mess, a pile of meat on the street
association,Trying to perceive if he's blind or insane, he steers his car into the other lane

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~The sun goes down and so does she[/color][/color][/font]

inlove, or mind not anything that comes closest to knowledgeable or knowledge less true gnosis
truelove, that ever strived for second of superceding darkness with its umbrella shaped harness
final, that efficiently prepares each and every one of us for absolute nothingness burning glances
spouce,awaken the dreaming dead bereft of vengeance and in the horizon wraith of a messianic failure
fiancée,false visions moons waning pantheon of obsidian seraphim wringing hands drowns your blessing
current, A monument to heavens a silhouette of the tired is death the only doorway or just an infinite
onandoffdating, contradictions your sewn mouth secrets I've had all I can stomach my apathy
future,has blinded me casting my failures to the wind and still death waits
pastbadterms,Search manufacture or remanufacture. But I can see your future and it does not contain me.
pastgoodterms, was you, slowly and surely you're more machine than men. Gears and cogs clog your system.
pastchemistry, that were in the light with intent to be in the dark when we face it we face the ways of success
highschoolsweethearts,deal with it on our own we dance around a light that most will never see nor feel
fling, Overcoming on overwhelming load of power and greed Break the chains That grab one's soul
mutualcrush,Dreams are surpassing him byWhy not live life to it's fullest and give it a try
crushonme,Your vision of a new life was impureGave into temptation and threw away what you believed
crushohyou, Your immaculate state of mind was only temporaryYour faults, your flaws, got the best of you
friendswithbenefits,Your commitment, your pledge to another human beingWas destroyed through curiosity
enemieswithbenefits,Your goal in life is far out of reach you'll find yourself out of luck into your domestic
lust,Kill my hopeless life I cannot be hypnotized. You owe me.Push aside the veil to welcome in the visitors.
physicalattraction,Terror and hubris - infants painted gauze peer through murky jars soon I'm wearing
sexualtension,Eyes like halogen illuminate the soma peering out of spherical night mask.
hotandcold,Green locks my name fills an empty banner. Frank, what have you gotten me into now
tease,Fuck your hopeless world, I am blacker than the sun. Tragedy. Have you seen the speedy, yes?
leadingon,The dark crow man sits and stares into the oblivion into cold into nothingness it's snowing
flirting, a knock on the door brings no smile to his cruel lips a woman's eyes holds nothing for him.
fleetingglances,Alone on his haunches the hair raises on the back of his neck. His dead eyes pierce the night

~ Your icy breath will still warm my heart[/color][/font]

lovehate,As his gaze falls down on the city it fills him the method ascertained, conviction
family,The sore on the edge of your mouth it mirror the ones on your arm of black tar you the ripping
futurefamily,I know you don't want to live in the dirt you want to know nothing but dirt
mixedfeelings,Kill the flux. Stretched to breaking an obscene canvas on a stretcher of parasitism
badinfluence, You piece of shit I won'y say your name but I will say this - FUCK OFF AND DIE
goodinfluence,You've shot out your eyes but I'm seeing that you cannot feel anything of worth.
protectiveoverme,Know that you've pissed life away, lost in your narcotic dreams
protectiveoveryou,Why does it bother? I want to punch in your sunken face and see your dusty blood smear
respected,Tounging the glue stamp seal of your fold. Cased in forests of black steel rod.
admiration, Vines of nerve float downstream. Sections of horror. This is something you must neverdoagain.
stalker, Falling spiral down. You know not what you are looking for but it will find you anyway
obsessive, Punish me for my failure. Dissect my faith. Twisting my trust.Never, no more, I'm alone.
fleetinglove, Face down on the cold floor of a well-oiled SF pigsty I met my one true love
roommate, Feel youth crushed somewhere between concrete & boot, another victim of the lower hate
bandmate, How the helpless freak squirms beneath our state sanctioned soles, but what is he laughing at
teacherstudent,Rotator cuff hyper extends behind my back ribs cracking beneath a rain of sticks
mentor, .Oh yeah bitch, I'm gonna remember your face your name your number
emotionalsupport,and when I crawl out of this hole I'm going to make you all mine
neverspoken,Last words of confidence still penetrate the cannonthunder, so many daring dreams will fall,
fakefriends, the vision of a better world dies in the bombingrain. No time to say farewell,
familyfriends,Betrayed by spineless servants, conspiracies - so many heroes shot from behind. No thoughts
secret, This desesperate fight will set a sing - they died with the gun in their hands. Time will avenge one day
forbidden,the sky is colored red by the martyrs blood, the same sky under which the victors marching in
other(specify), If it all came down to me would I shed my blood for what I lived for would I clench my fist

plot made by me. =] lyrics go to: Abigail Williams, The acacia strain, Arsonists get all the girls, As blood runs black, August burns red, The black dahlia murder, Bring me the horizon, Cannibal corpse, A day to remember, Heaven shall burn, I killed the prom queen, and Lamb of god. rules are simple. post in mine, i'll post in yours. use matching icons. dont go make me go find your nonexsistant charrie's celeb. use lots and lots of relationships. quote my page for the colors. post in and out of code. read my charrie's app before you post make a reply. make it go along with who my charrie is. dont post anything that involves them knowing each other before they came here unless we have talked. make it interesting. or i drool. then it ruins my comput. then i punch someone. then i have to clean my carpet. then it costs money and elbow grease. and im lathorgic so that isnt good. then i have to move cause im too lazy to clean the stain and i dont like a stained carpet. that costs allot more money. and time and engery that i really dont have to waste on you cause it would be all of your fault.......and yes all of this would happen if you put my charrie is friend's with otep because they are. seriously people.

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[size=0][font=georgia][color=goldenrod]~[/color][b]Yourcharrie[/b]says[color=goldenrod];[/color] [i]"firstperson. a good chunky paragraph. at least over seven goodsized sentences. make it interesting."[/i]
[color=goldenrod]~[/color][b]Otep[/b]says[color=goldenrod];[/color][i]"i'll put this on later"[/i][/font][/size]

~OtepWhite

the bottle spun seventeen times
but my rage still exsists

friendswithbenefits,Your commitment, your pledge to another human beingWas destroyed through curiosity
enemieswithbenefits,Your goal in life is far out of reach you'll find yourself out of luck into your domestic
lust,Kill my hopeless life I cannot be hypnotized. You owe me.Push aside the veil to welcome in the visitors.
physicalattraction,Terror and hubris - infants painted gauze peer through murky jars soon I'm wearing
sexualtension,Eyes like halogen illuminate the soma peering out of spherical night mask.
hotandcold,Green locks my name fills an empty banner. Frank, what have you gotten me into now
tease,Fuck your hopeless world, I am blacker than the sun. Tragedy. Have you seen the speedy, yes?
leadingon,The dark crow man sits and stares into the oblivion into cold into nothingness it's snowing
flirting, a knock on the door brings no smile to his cruel lips a woman's eyes holds nothing for him.
fleetingglances,Alone on his haunches the hair raises on the back of his neck. His dead eyes pierce the night

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~Otepsays; "!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!."
~Otep2says;"?"[/blockquote][/blockquote]

[Otep Firethorne]

~Know that you've pissed life away, lost in your narcotic dreams

[kyle danager]

~KyleDanager

the bottle spun seventeen times
but my kindess, vanity, hyperness, and need for change still exsists

justmet, Tie me up, light me up, tear me down. As the paint runs down your face and into your eyes
firstnamebasis,think of me. I want to be remembered as pain. Its more then a scar. it’s a lifetime
acquaintance,you can dance around the truth all you want but it wont change the outcome
jealousy,Beautiful voices forever will choke me down I hope that you look me in the eyes, when I cry
envy,Look into a mirror at someone that you hate Sit back and watch, as the paint will dry
avoidance,As time will pass us by You won't change as the sky burns me Another lonely night will await me
scaredof,As the sky will burn you apart As the mirror turns you into someone that you hate
intimidated,I'm dying and bleeding of my past Wasting away from you I hope that you will break
~Kylesays; "you were the first person i ran into when i started volunteering here. i didn't know you were actually a patient, and you scared the living shit out of me to be honest. i don't know why, and i still don't, it's not your look or anything. hello, i go to shows, i'm used to the whole scene/punk/hardcore/whatchamacallit look. to be honest, i'm extremely jealous of your confidence, and the fact that you plainly don't give a fuck.. i wish i could be like that, seriously. i occasionally say hi and make small talk when we're around each other, but.. we've never actually had a decent conversation. i definitely blame it on myself due to the fact. you intimidate me. "
~Otepsays;"i'll put this on later"